Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on
Jul 19, 2009
where'd you go
Jul 16, 2009
10 little toe nails sitting on the wall
I am Jack's Bleeding Heart Nail.
I went for my Ingrown toenail operation today and ouch, it was really painful.
I always thought i was someone that could withstand alot of pain. I have stepped on nails (by accident), stapled my hand, removed a strip of skin from my finger with a knife, sprained both ankles, sprained a wrist, knocked my 2 front teeth out, smashed my nose against a ball till it bled ... but today, as i lay on the operating table, the doctor cut out my toenail, i swear i nearly fainted.
Let me digress by saying that i am no stranger to this surgery, because I have done it before when similarly due to the stresses of impacting a spherical rubber object across plains of grass, my toenails protested and grew into my flesh. I tahaned this pain for a good 2 months before i seeked help and till now i blame this for my poor A div performance. haha.
Today, the doctor started cutting me up when i could still feel the pain.
Me: That hurts, really. Is it supposed to hurt?
Doctor: I think what is meant here is discomfort; Local anaesthetic is like that. Try to bear with it.
Me: Oh god [moans]. This is really painful. I am grabbing myself there are fingernail marks all over my arms. Is it like that?
Nurse: Hang in there, it will be over.
It is after a few minutes of my incessant complaining where i think something snapped and:
Doc: Ok, I am going to give you another shot of painkillers.
The rest of the surgery proceeeded on pretty smoothly after that, but really I was scarred.
My toe hurts :(
I went for my Ingrown toenail operation today and ouch, it was really painful.
I always thought i was someone that could withstand alot of pain. I have stepped on nails (by accident), stapled my hand, removed a strip of skin from my finger with a knife, sprained both ankles, sprained a wrist, knocked my 2 front teeth out, smashed my nose against a ball till it bled ... but today, as i lay on the operating table, the doctor cut out my toenail, i swear i nearly fainted.
Let me digress by saying that i am no stranger to this surgery, because I have done it before when similarly due to the stresses of impacting a spherical rubber object across plains of grass, my toenails protested and grew into my flesh. I tahaned this pain for a good 2 months before i seeked help and till now i blame this for my poor A div performance. haha.
Today, the doctor started cutting me up when i could still feel the pain.
Me: That hurts, really. Is it supposed to hurt?
Doctor: I think what is meant here is discomfort; Local anaesthetic is like that. Try to bear with it.
Me: Oh god [moans]. This is really painful. I am grabbing myself there are fingernail marks all over my arms. Is it like that?
Nurse: Hang in there, it will be over.
It is after a few minutes of my incessant complaining where i think something snapped and:
Doc: Ok, I am going to give you another shot of painkillers.
The rest of the surgery proceeeded on pretty smoothly after that, but really I was scarred.
My toe hurts :(
Jul 14, 2009
You're still kinda cute
Well, I don't know if anyone reads this anymore. So its kinda liberating to just type what's been going on in my life.
I guess my perspective on life has really changed alot ever since i entered NS and especially after i commissioned. There's so much more to life than what i thought, and ultimately, your loved ones are the most important.
I am filled with vigor now, to chase my dreams.
But this isn't about me.
It's about my family.
It's about the girlfriend <3
It's about the friends.
As what that giant tagboard in front of Paya Lebar Air Base says,
I am here for a higher purpose.
I guess my perspective on life has really changed alot ever since i entered NS and especially after i commissioned. There's so much more to life than what i thought, and ultimately, your loved ones are the most important.
I am filled with vigor now, to chase my dreams.
But this isn't about me.
It's about my family.
It's about the girlfriend <3
It's about the friends.
As what that giant tagboard in front of Paya Lebar Air Base says,
I am here for a higher purpose.
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